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I remember Pablo Honey in the "New Releases" selection of the one electronics store we had in the small town where I grew up. It was at that time I bought my first CD: Nirvana's In Utero. This was the beginning of music for me. I had never liked anything other than classical music until I heard Offspring's Smash and Nirvana's Nevermind. I was raised in the 1980's and had a general dislike for music. Then I became a teenager and heavy rock was in. I can still recall the first albums I bought on CD… Foo Fighters, The Smashing Pumpkins Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness, Silverchair's Frogstomp, and a compilation CD featuring three of what became my favorite songs at the time: White Zombie's 'More Human than Human' Filter's 'Hey Man, Nice Shot' and Radiohead's 'Creep.'
The Bends came out not too soon after and a friend I were walking home from school. He had just bought the album. He invited me over to listen to it and it was the first time I went over to a friend's house and just sat back, listening to an album. I didn't much care for the first two songs but by 'Nice Dream' and 'Just,' I started to really like what I was hearing. I remember 'Bullet Proof... I Wish I Was' moved me and how the album ended with Thom singing; "Just like your dad, you'll never change." I left thinking I had heard the entire album. My tastes then were much more on the dark and heavy side, being a rebellious teenager, but I could appreciate the album for what it was: good music. Sadly, I didn't care whether I was listening to good music or not, I wanted to be listening to what my mom would call "satanic."
I'll never forget the feeling left with me after seeing the music video for ‘Just.’ The mystery, I loved it! The video for 'High and Dry' was as good as the feature Hollywood films that were being produced at the time.
Still though, Radiohead remained just another band that I liked. Nothing more.
I'll never forget the moment Radiohead hit me... I was over at a girl friend's house and we were doing homework together on her bedroom floor. She told me to pick out a CD to put on play. There was only one listenable CD in her collection and it was The Bends. We talked more than we listened to the album until ‘Bullet Proof’ played and I told her to just listen to the song with me. It was still as beautiful as the first time I had heard it. She agreed, never have listened to the entire album. We then sat quiet as mice listening to the rest of the album. Soon ‘Street Spirit’ began to play. I had a panic attack-like sensation. It sounded like a song from one of my nightmares. I could see these images... slow motion black and white images of a horse and a man bleeding from his head. I remember seeing the girl's reaction to my state and knowing whatever was happening, she found it attractive. I made her play the song again and I focused all my energy on trying to remember where these feelings and dream-like memories first came from. Only before had this happened with David Lynch films, never with music. Haunting and beautiful. I had tears running down my face by the end of the song the second time through. She let me keep the album.
A couple months later I saw the music video for ‘Street Spirit’ and knew it wasn't my first time.
I could only figure that I must have been half asleep, watching Much Music, and they played the video, engraving it's images into my subconscious.
I bought OK Computer when it came out and it was not too soon after that I knew Radiohead was not only one of my favorite bands, but possibly the most advanced music of it's time. I still enjoy every track, a flawless album.
In 2000, KID A came out and though after the first listening I thought the band had maybe done a little too much LSD, trying to be like The Beatles, yet I couldn't stop listening to the album. "There's gotta be more to this." - I was convinced KID A was not a complete album. It wasn't soon after that I heard rumors that KID A was suppose to be a double CD. Then, finally hearing official news that Amnesiac, another album, was going to be released in 2001, I wasn't surprised. I knew there had to be more and first hearing Amnesiac, I fell in-love. Amnesiac was everything I wanted to hear.
Hail to the Thief I thought would be their best to date, especially since it was going to be fourteen tracks and the video for 'There There' was one of their best yet.
It started strong with ‘2+2=5’ but then ‘Sit Down. Stand Up.’ was a little too repetitive and ‘Sail to the Moon’ was one of the saddest, darkest piano pieces I had ever heard with Thom singing some of his most uplifting lyrics, it never sat right with me. I loved ‘Backdrifts,’ ‘Go to Sleep,’ ‘Where I End and You Begin’ but ‘We Suck Young Blood’ I thought was so creepy it wasn’t enjoyably to listen to. Hail to the Thief felt messy. Very hit and miss.
Out of nowhere, came In Rainbows and it was as if all other albums of the past had been tests, "Here you go, here's 10 perfect songs." Radiohead had found a place they knew we wanted to dwell and what a fitting name: In Rainbows. They had read our minds. Something thought to be an impossible task, Radiohead had out-done themselves.
It's now over two weeks since the release of The King of Limbs and the album is not sitting right with me. It feels like KID A all over again... where's the rest of the album?
1. Bloom - A piano echoes in delays, reminiscent to 'MK2' and when the drums come in, it sounds very much like this song follows 'Videotape.' The song begins In Rainbows and by the end has taken us back to those tight drum beats first heard on KID A.
2. Morning Mr. Magpie - Insanity. First heard the song on Radiohead TV's "The Most Gigantic Lying Mouth of All Time." The song had one of the most beautiful acoustic guitar riffs I had ever heard. Then, changing time, becoming creepy, Thom sang "Good morning Mr. Magpie, how are we today?" This was seven years ago. Now, what we have here, is an all out attack of glitched noises to over-load the senses and leave you listening closely, wondering if Radiohead has finally achieved in making you go crazy.
3. Little By Little - Again, another over-load. Seems like a song that would have fit perfectly on 'Amnesiac' between 'Knives Out' and 'Dollars & Cents' (instead of the bad remix of Morning Bell). Instead here, as a third song to a new album, it leaves you hoping for a brilliant song to follow it.
4. Feral - Yes, now it is official! Not only has Radiohead been exposed for really trying to drive their audience insane with this song but if you are like me, and enjoy this track, I'm afraid they have succeeded.
5. Lotus Flower - Ah, that's better!
6. Codex - Sounds like a prequel to 'Pyramid Song.' Suddenly this album has become brilliant.
7. Give Up the Ghost - Yes, yes, this is bliss!
8. Separator - Now, what do we have here? This is NOT a proper closing track. Not that any part of this album has a "proper" feel to it. It just feels wrong to end it here. Where's the rest of the album? Thom is even singing: "If you think this is over then you're wrong."
The Bends came out not too soon after and a friend I were walking home from school. He had just bought the album. He invited me over to listen to it and it was the first time I went over to a friend's house and just sat back, listening to an album. I didn't much care for the first two songs but by 'Nice Dream' and 'Just,' I started to really like what I was hearing. I remember 'Bullet Proof... I Wish I Was' moved me and how the album ended with Thom singing; "Just like your dad, you'll never change." I left thinking I had heard the entire album. My tastes then were much more on the dark and heavy side, being a rebellious teenager, but I could appreciate the album for what it was: good music. Sadly, I didn't care whether I was listening to good music or not, I wanted to be listening to what my mom would call "satanic."
I'll never forget the feeling left with me after seeing the music video for ‘Just.’ The mystery, I loved it! The video for 'High and Dry' was as good as the feature Hollywood films that were being produced at the time.
Still though, Radiohead remained just another band that I liked. Nothing more.
I'll never forget the moment Radiohead hit me... I was over at a girl friend's house and we were doing homework together on her bedroom floor. She told me to pick out a CD to put on play. There was only one listenable CD in her collection and it was The Bends. We talked more than we listened to the album until ‘Bullet Proof’ played and I told her to just listen to the song with me. It was still as beautiful as the first time I had heard it. She agreed, never have listened to the entire album. We then sat quiet as mice listening to the rest of the album. Soon ‘Street Spirit’ began to play. I had a panic attack-like sensation. It sounded like a song from one of my nightmares. I could see these images... slow motion black and white images of a horse and a man bleeding from his head. I remember seeing the girl's reaction to my state and knowing whatever was happening, she found it attractive. I made her play the song again and I focused all my energy on trying to remember where these feelings and dream-like memories first came from. Only before had this happened with David Lynch films, never with music. Haunting and beautiful. I had tears running down my face by the end of the song the second time through. She let me keep the album.
A couple months later I saw the music video for ‘Street Spirit’ and knew it wasn't my first time.
I could only figure that I must have been half asleep, watching Much Music, and they played the video, engraving it's images into my subconscious.
I bought OK Computer when it came out and it was not too soon after that I knew Radiohead was not only one of my favorite bands, but possibly the most advanced music of it's time. I still enjoy every track, a flawless album.
In 2000, KID A came out and though after the first listening I thought the band had maybe done a little too much LSD, trying to be like The Beatles, yet I couldn't stop listening to the album. "There's gotta be more to this." - I was convinced KID A was not a complete album. It wasn't soon after that I heard rumors that KID A was suppose to be a double CD. Then, finally hearing official news that Amnesiac, another album, was going to be released in 2001, I wasn't surprised. I knew there had to be more and first hearing Amnesiac, I fell in-love. Amnesiac was everything I wanted to hear.
Hail to the Thief I thought would be their best to date, especially since it was going to be fourteen tracks and the video for 'There There' was one of their best yet.
It started strong with ‘2+2=5’ but then ‘Sit Down. Stand Up.’ was a little too repetitive and ‘Sail to the Moon’ was one of the saddest, darkest piano pieces I had ever heard with Thom singing some of his most uplifting lyrics, it never sat right with me. I loved ‘Backdrifts,’ ‘Go to Sleep,’ ‘Where I End and You Begin’ but ‘We Suck Young Blood’ I thought was so creepy it wasn’t enjoyably to listen to. Hail to the Thief felt messy. Very hit and miss.
Out of nowhere, came In Rainbows and it was as if all other albums of the past had been tests, "Here you go, here's 10 perfect songs." Radiohead had found a place they knew we wanted to dwell and what a fitting name: In Rainbows. They had read our minds. Something thought to be an impossible task, Radiohead had out-done themselves.
It's now over two weeks since the release of The King of Limbs and the album is not sitting right with me. It feels like KID A all over again... where's the rest of the album?
1. Bloom - A piano echoes in delays, reminiscent to 'MK2' and when the drums come in, it sounds very much like this song follows 'Videotape.' The song begins In Rainbows and by the end has taken us back to those tight drum beats first heard on KID A.
2. Morning Mr. Magpie - Insanity. First heard the song on Radiohead TV's "The Most Gigantic Lying Mouth of All Time." The song had one of the most beautiful acoustic guitar riffs I had ever heard. Then, changing time, becoming creepy, Thom sang "Good morning Mr. Magpie, how are we today?" This was seven years ago. Now, what we have here, is an all out attack of glitched noises to over-load the senses and leave you listening closely, wondering if Radiohead has finally achieved in making you go crazy.
3. Little By Little - Again, another over-load. Seems like a song that would have fit perfectly on 'Amnesiac' between 'Knives Out' and 'Dollars & Cents' (instead of the bad remix of Morning Bell). Instead here, as a third song to a new album, it leaves you hoping for a brilliant song to follow it.
4. Feral - Yes, now it is official! Not only has Radiohead been exposed for really trying to drive their audience insane with this song but if you are like me, and enjoy this track, I'm afraid they have succeeded.
5. Lotus Flower - Ah, that's better!
6. Codex - Sounds like a prequel to 'Pyramid Song.' Suddenly this album has become brilliant.
7. Give Up the Ghost - Yes, yes, this is bliss!
8. Separator - Now, what do we have here? This is NOT a proper closing track. Not that any part of this album has a "proper" feel to it. It just feels wrong to end it here. Where's the rest of the album? Thom is even singing: "If you think this is over then you're wrong."
Unique Film Awards 2010
20. Worse Film of the Year
19. Best Small Role/Cameo of the Year
18. Villian of the Year
17. Best On-Screen Duo
16. Best Action/Fight Scene
15. Best Comedy Film
14. Best Horror/Thriller Film
13. Best Action/Adventure Film
12. Best Dramatic Film
11. Best Animated Feature
10. Best Sound Design
9. Best Editing
8. Best Cinematography
7. Best Visual Effects
6. Soundtrack of the Year
5. Actress of the Year
4. Actor of the Year
3. Screenplay of the Year
2. Director of the Year
1. Most Unique Film of 2009
‘Let Me In'
19. Best Small Role/Cameo of the Year
Barry Pepper as Lucky Ned Pepper in ‘True Grit’
18. Villian of the Year
Josh Brolin as Tom Chaney in ‘True Grit’
17. Best On-Screen Duo
Will Ferrell & Mark Wahlberg in ‘The Other Guys’
16. Best Action/Fight Scene
Big Daddy Warehouse Shoot-out from 'Kick Ass'
15. Best Comedy Film
‘The Other Guys’
14. Best Horror/Thriller Film
'Shutter Island’
13. Best Action/Adventure Film
‘True Grit’
12. Best Dramatic Film
‘Never Let Me Go’
11. Best Animated Feature
‘Despicable Me’
10. Best Sound Design
James Boyle for ‘Scott Pilgrim vs. The World’
9. Best Editing
Jonathan Amos & Paul Machliss for ‘Scott Pilgrim vs. The World’
8. Best Cinematography
Roger Deakins for ‘True Grit’
7. Best Visual Effects
Chris Corbould, Andrew Lockley, Pete Bebb, Paul J. Franklin for ‘Inception’
6. Soundtrack of the Year
Trent Reznor & Atticus Ross for ‘The Social Network’
5. Actress of the Year
Natalie Portman for her role in ‘Black Swan’
4. Actor of the Year
Jeff Bridges his role in ‘True Grit’
3. Screenplay of the Year
Joel & Ethan Coen for their adaptation of 'True Grit'
2. Director of the Year
Danny Boyle for ‘127 Hours’
1. Most Unique Film of 2009
‘Black Swan’
Ceased
The house planned to shoot 'Kiss the Kids Goodnight' flooded. Production has ceased.
'Beyond' the paranormal documentary was not approved for the grant that was applied for and production has also ceased.
However, production on 'The Missing Patient' album is still going strong.
'Beyond' the paranormal documentary was not approved for the grant that was applied for and production has also ceased.
However, production on 'The Missing Patient' album is still going strong.
Diary
For the last 6 months I have been living in an apartment building. The apartment building is a senior's building, where I have been hiding. The landlord is Micheal Cain's doppelganger (or vise versa). He tells me that him and I will be the youngest people living in the building, that it is "full of a bunch of old farts too stubborn to be put in an old folks home."
The last tenant was a 72 year old woman who died in the apartment of heart complications. The corpse sat until he had taken notice of the smell, therefore the carpets were new. Now honestly, I couldn't have been more excited as parapsychology is something I have studied somewhat and admire. Unfortunately nothing paranormal had happened here in this 6 months. The refrigerator makes some strange noises at night, nothing more. Until now.
The last few weeks, after midnight at some point the elevator will close from the 1st floor and rise to the 4th floor, by itself. Or so it seems. Only two other people from myself have noticed this and both of them, friends of mine, after witnessing this decide to take the stairs, rather than get into to open and empty elevator.
I am going to try and document any other happenings. If I am able to find anything else, I will be keeping this as a diary, with videos to support my findings.
The last tenant was a 72 year old woman who died in the apartment of heart complications. The corpse sat until he had taken notice of the smell, therefore the carpets were new. Now honestly, I couldn't have been more excited as parapsychology is something I have studied somewhat and admire. Unfortunately nothing paranormal had happened here in this 6 months. The refrigerator makes some strange noises at night, nothing more. Until now.
The last few weeks, after midnight at some point the elevator will close from the 1st floor and rise to the 4th floor, by itself. Or so it seems. Only two other people from myself have noticed this and both of them, friends of mine, after witnessing this decide to take the stairs, rather than get into to open and empty elevator.
I am going to try and document any other happenings. If I am able to find anything else, I will be keeping this as a diary, with videos to support my findings.
Page 1
Originally, 'The Missing Patient' was a short story first written between 1999-2001. I loved the concept of the world created and felt that it represented all the different areas I wanted to explore, that all my work as a visual artist and what I call 'Random Dablings' (which I now use as lyrics), could be contained within that world.
I have now begun re-writing that original short story. I don't know what will come of it. Below is the first page.
The Old World has broken out in war all over the entire land, people fighting and dying for what they believe in. Violence and chaos reign but the people stay faithful to their beliefs and die, almost willingly because to them it gives them reason. They feel their existence meaningful, as they all walk in faith.
Meanwhile, in The New World, the only people who are not atheists are in psych-wards, which are all quite empty. Reason and logic, science is their religion. People only fear death and this is why the largest corporations sell life-expansion plans. People here are all gamers and addicts to prescription medicine, which most popular brands are owned by the same corporations selling life-expansion (This same corporation also provides such services as cosmetic surgery and human cloning). Everyone uses supplement pills instead of eating a proper diet, “life-enhancing” drugs to enhance their gaming, never to know how it feels to generate real emotions and adrenaline from real life experiences. This is where our story takes place….
I
In the Northwestern Psychiatric Center, someone is waking up. Someone without an identity, without a single memory has woken up in a perfectly clean bright, white room with padded walls. They slowly realize that they are lying on their back on a very thin, long hospital bed. It frightens them how slow their muscles are to react as they try to sit up and get to their feet. The room has a good sized television, long white couch and a white wide, tall chair. In what resembled what once might have been a closet, a tiny bathroom had been set up, yet there was no door to close or a mirror to look into. Everything was white and padded. It would be difficult for a person to find a way to kill themselves in this space, they thought. Other than an obviously locked, big white padded door - there was nothing else to look at. The room was as clean and empty feeling as their mind.
I have now begun re-writing that original short story. I don't know what will come of it. Below is the first page.
Prologue
Our story takes place in the near future…
Humanity has split in two. The far right and the far left. There is no in between, no balance, and all is chaos. Our story takes place in the near future…
The Old World has broken out in war all over the entire land, people fighting and dying for what they believe in. Violence and chaos reign but the people stay faithful to their beliefs and die, almost willingly because to them it gives them reason. They feel their existence meaningful, as they all walk in faith.
Meanwhile, in The New World, the only people who are not atheists are in psych-wards, which are all quite empty. Reason and logic, science is their religion. People only fear death and this is why the largest corporations sell life-expansion plans. People here are all gamers and addicts to prescription medicine, which most popular brands are owned by the same corporations selling life-expansion (This same corporation also provides such services as cosmetic surgery and human cloning). Everyone uses supplement pills instead of eating a proper diet, “life-enhancing” drugs to enhance their gaming, never to know how it feels to generate real emotions and adrenaline from real life experiences. This is where our story takes place….
The Missing Patient
I
In the Northwestern Psychiatric Center, someone is waking up. Someone without an identity, without a single memory has woken up in a perfectly clean bright, white room with padded walls. They slowly realize that they are lying on their back on a very thin, long hospital bed. It frightens them how slow their muscles are to react as they try to sit up and get to their feet. The room has a good sized television, long white couch and a white wide, tall chair. In what resembled what once might have been a closet, a tiny bathroom had been set up, yet there was no door to close or a mirror to look into. Everything was white and padded. It would be difficult for a person to find a way to kill themselves in this space, they thought. Other than an obviously locked, big white padded door - there was nothing else to look at. The room was as clean and empty feeling as their mind.
The Setting Sun
There is an untitled 10 minute documentary about a haunted house currently in-production.
Jeff Gant and Jeremy Heynen are co-directing the project which will be finished before the end of the year.
The music video which has been in post-production for 7 months is finally finished and streaming live. Helcion - "The Sun Sets For No One"
Jeff Gant and Jeremy Heynen are co-directing the project which will be finished before the end of the year.
The music video which has been in post-production for 7 months is finally finished and streaming live. Helcion - "The Sun Sets For No One"
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the worse part about this whole "artist" thing are the emotional edges that have to be explored in order to achieve a greater sense & consciousness of what is human.
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Thanks to all those who enjoyed these edits of 'The Gift' footage of Nine Inch Nails' "Lights in the Sky" Tour. It means a lot knowing that there is still interest out there for this project, as it was hard work and was done 100% for free.
Link is to the raw 720p HD file of 'Nine Inch Nails Live: Head Down.' Perfect to watch on iTunes.
Being seeded by popular demand.
Thanks to all those who enjoyed these edits of 'The Gift' footage of Nine Inch Nails' "Lights in the Sky" Tour. It means a lot knowing that there is still interest out there for this project, as it was hard work and was done 100% for free.
Link is to the raw 720p HD file of 'Nine Inch Nails Live: Head Down.' Perfect to watch on iTunes.